Why does AIDS keep coming back into my life?

You know, a couple of years ago I was asked to speak in a chapel about AIDS and I was quite puzzled as to why that would be.  I didn't really have any major experience with people with AIDS (PWA), in fact I was rather indignent about the matter.  You see where I grew up no one had AIDS and so I didn't think it was that big of a deal.  I did speak in that Chapel.  I talked about one of the few people that I did know that had died from AIDS.  (To be terribly honest, I didn't like her that much.  As a child I found her anoying.)  Is that possibly why I remained so distant from the problem?

Anyhow, I dropped the AIDS ball the very afternoon I spoke in chapel.  Later I looked at doing an international internship with an organization that worked with the AIDS pandemic in South Africa.  I pursued it strongly, but I lost interest and dropped the ball once again when I realized I would have to fund raise my position.  (I was tired of that from being on the mission field)  I tried to get involved with the local Acting on AIDS chapter at AU, but I lost interest after awhile because I didn't feel as though this pandemic was something I really cared about.  Talk about poverty, globalization, indigenious people's issues, etc and I will listen.  But AIDS puts me to sleep. 

The last few weeks of school I was approached about taking a summer course called "Spiritual Care for HIV and AIDS: Theology and Praxis".  It was being taught by a lady (late 20s) that used to babysit me when i was younger.  I knew that she was passionate about the matter and that she had pursued higher degrees while going back and forth to Uganda and working with an AIDS community there.  I made every excuse for not taking the class up until the very morning that it started.  I began with the work load....she said not to worry about it and just do what I had time to do.  Then it was that I was going to have to miss work....my boss willingly gave me the time off.  The biggie was the cost.  I have just finished school and I didn't want to pay for three more credit hours....she said I could take it for free and under the radar.  I had no more excuses.

I just finished my last session of nine hour days for the past week.  My heart is broken.  I am tired of running.  Why God does AIDS keeping coming back into my life....

I'll wait till You show me.

Well,

Today has been a good day so far....I got to sleep in till 11am (which I NEVER get to do).  I woke up and just sat in my room, turned on the TV, and just watched two hours of TV in the middle of the morning (which I NEVER get to do). 

I found new TV show from the 60's called "That Girl"....I have decided it is my new favourite show.....You should watch it....

Well, I have to get busy studying for Finals....they start on Monday...ugh...but soon it shall all be over.............Time goes by soooo fast........

Now what's next?